Hey everyone. Still in shock over last month and trying to wrap my head around it. It’s not inappropriate to call this a “grieving” process is it? It feels like I’m grieving. Usually I’d just try to force some positivity. Not this time. I’m just going to grieve for a little bit longer.
Even after this American shock…I still found time to stitch.
Stitching soothes the soul. There’s only 2 columns left for AF4 and then I’m done with the page and moving on down.
Besides the other, I’ve come to a personal crossroad. I’m reevaluating my career. I love my job, I do. I do wonder where am I going afterwards. Is this a career I want to continue? If so, what is my end goal? Is there even an end goal here? I’ve been lost. I’m not too sure what I want to do. At the same time, I’ve been thinking about going back to school and majoring in Psychology. It was my major when I first started college. I’ve always wanted to be a therapist of some kind. Marriage, child, mental…I’m not sure which I’d focus, but I would like to be a counselor of some kind. I love helping people and as someone with their own mental health disorders I would definitely want to focus and help others. Especially those who feel stigmatized about it. It took me a long time to feel as if my anxiety and obsessive thinking are okay. I’m okay. You can manage them really well and it’s not because something is wrong with you. You’re just magnificently different. It’s a compliment really. Who wants to be the same as everyone else anyway? Not me. I’m not basic.
I’m just unsure. Is this what I want to do? Go back to school? I know that learning is an everlasting continuum. I’m a little lost with what it is I want. It’s a little strange for me to focus on my future. My spontaneous brain doesn’t know how to comprehend the thought change.
Has anyone gone through something similar?
By the way, I found this adorable livestream. I’ve been watching it for a very long time. Maybe August. Thought I’d share (^_^).
Have a wonderful day.